I’m Tired. Are You Tired?
If you’re fine, congratulations.
Tired. I’m tired! Are you tired?
I don’t necessarily mean physically tired, although that’s part of it.
The brain tumor keeps me in an almost constant state of fatigue.
But I’m also mentally and spiritually tired.
I’m tired of people being ugly to each other.
I’m tired of violence and senseless destruction.
I’m tired of ‘walking on eggshells’ so as not to offend anyone.
I’m tired of children being abused and neglected. I’m tired of hearing about missing children. I praise God for the ones found and returned home, but I hate that they were missing. I grieve over the staggering number that don’t make it safely home.
I’m tired of older people being cast aside.
I’m tired of the cacophony of ‘voices’ out there trying to influence my thinking. I haven’t written a blog post in months because there are so many voices out there trying to get people’s attention, it’s overwhelming. I don’t want to create more noise. The past few months have been a time to “be still and know”.
I’m tired of people contradicting each other, accusing each other. Shouting one another down. When did we, as a people, lose the ability to listen before responding?
Does anybody listen anymore?
I’m tired of illness and disease.
I’m tired of people mistreating and neglecting animals.
I’m tired of money. The ‘when, how, and how much’ that at times overwhelms me. I’m tired of it.
I’m tired of living in a culture that celebrates and elevates evil people. I’m tired of people, myself included, who turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to things that are just wrong.
This world is not my home. I’m just passing through. I don’t feel at home here anymore. Often, I find myself just wanting to go home because — I’m tired.